Tuesday, February 16, 2021

The Sign Post

     Clara and Joy had been best friends for several years, since they met in middle school. Clara's life was normal. She had a family, went to school, had friends, and, ultimately, did not stand out much. In fact, Clara was often known by those she hung around with, rather than who she was. One might expect that it would mean she hung out with some popular people, but they would be wrong. Her friends were nice people, often falling into the nerd or geek category. 

    Joy was the exception to this rule. In fact, Joy was nothing like any of Clara's friends. Joy was short, very short. Joy's family life was difficult, at best. Joy was smart in her own way but had a lot of learning disabilities. School was easy for nearly all of Clara’s friends and extremely difficult for Joy.

          Home and school were not the only ways in which the lives of Joy and Clara, and her other friends, differed. Joy never complained. Her situation was not easy, to be sure, and she just took it in stride. Each day, Joy took as a chance to start anew. She was a happy person who tolerated teasing quietly, embraced laughter and opportunities to have fun when they arose, and never spoke badly of anyone. Not even those who might deserve it.

          Clara and her other friends laughed and enjoyed every day, but they had their days when they complained about school, teachers, friends who were not there to defend themselves, and parents. Often, Clara forgot that Joy’s life was pretty hard, and she would whine and rant about her parents and how they wouldn’t buy her something or wouldn’t listen to her over some trivial matter.

          Joy’s life was so different from hers that Clara often forgot that what she thought was important, might not be so to Joy. But Joy always listened and laughed or nodded her head. She was an only child but seemed to understand the burdens of having siblings. Her parents were not great. They were abusive and had substance abuse issues, but Joy seemed to understand Clara’s problems with her own, loving parents.

          Clara soon came to realize that Joy just did not like to be confrontational and to bring up how lucky Clara was to be so loved and wealthy of family would be too much for her. So, Clara began to watch out for what she said. She did not want Joy to feel bad. If Clara felt frustrated at home, she would think, “Joy has it worse.”

          This came up once when they were outside one summer evening and the sky was clear and full of stars. They had been walking Clara’s neighborhood and stopped at the park to look up at the night sky. Joy was blind, see. Clara often forgot that despite Joy wearing these glasses on her face that made her eyes look huge. It was often the cause of many people teasing her. Still, it was just one more thing that Joy never complained about. It just was.

          So, while they were out, enjoying the summer night, Clara and Joy lay back on the grass and looked up. “Look at all those stars!” Clara exclaimed. It was a perfect night for stargazing.

          Joy was looking upward and said, “I can’t see them. What do they look like to you?”

          It was not said harshly, but Clara felt as if her heart were stabbed. Of course, her friend was blind. Of course, Joy could not see them. For the first time since they met, Clara felt a pang of sympathy and pity for her friend. How could one go through life not being able to see the beauty of the stars? “Uhmm…” Clara had no idea how to describe them. “They glitter with light. Sort of like an asterisk.” Clara knew this did not even begin to come close to a proper description of the stars.

          Joy took a minute to put her hand into her fanny pack and pull something out. “I have a monocular,” Joy told Clara. “Point it to a star for me?”

          Clara had never seen a monocular before. She knew what binoculars were, of course, but not a monocular. She waited for Joy to put the monocular over one eye and then Clara sort of pointed it upwards for her. “There.”

          After a minute, Joy smiled and said, “Wow! That is beautiful!” She offered her monocular to Clara, “You try it.”

          Clara put the monocular to her eye. It worked just like a pair of binoculars, but only went over one eye, enlarging everything in the distance. She looked up at the sky and tried to find a star. “What did the stars look like to you?” she wondered.

          Joy sighed happily, “Like a beautiful light. I can’t see it glittering, but it was beautiful.”

          To Clara, the stars she looked at here like hyphens of light in the dark sky. “I see them like a hyphen with this,” she told Joy. “Do they look like that to you?”

          Joy shook her head, “Nope. Like a bright light in a dark room. The shape is not distinct for me. I just see the light.”

          Thinking back on that night, Clara realized it made her appreciate her sight. She also began to wonder if everyone saw things the same way. If she saw the stars as glittering asterisks, maybe no one else did. What if it was like that for everyone? Wouldn’t that be something?

          Clara and Joy’s friendship was normal. Despite the incredible differences they had, Clara never treated Joy like she was different. She was, but Clara often forgot that Joy was blind and short and had this horrible home life. They were just two girls, hanging out together. Which is how Joy ended up smacking right into a sign at the mall.

          The two girls had gone to the mall to hang out. Mostly, Clara wanted to go to the bookstore and Joy was eager to go with her. After a quick trip into the bookstore, they decided to go to the cafeteria and get something to eat before catching the bus back to Clara’s house.

          They were walking by the stores, talking about everything and nothing at all. They were laughing and nearing the escalators when Clara saw the sign on the post coming up. She glances to Joy who was using her cane to sweep the area in front of her for obstacles. “She’ll see the sign,” Clara told herself. “Her cane will hit it in a sweep in a moment.” She considered warning Joy about it anyways but decided not to. “Joy will see the sign when her cane hits it,” she reminded herself.

          Except, Joy’s cane swept right over the sign’s base and before Clara could say anything, Joy walked face-first into the sign. *CRASH* “Ow!” Joy yelped in surprise and pain. She was short enough that the sign hit one side of her face, from nose to cheek and from forehead to chin.

          Clara grimaced and blurted, “Oh gosh! I am so sorry! I should have said something!”

          Joy was holding her face a moment and Clara was happy to note she was not bleeding or bruised. Still, she felt very guilty for having said nothing. Suddenly, without warning, the whole situation felt funny to Clara and she burst out laughing. “I’m sorry!” she blurted amidst laughter. “That was hilarious!”

          Joy looked up towards her friend and swung her arm, stilling holding the cane, right across Clara’s upper chest.

          “Ow!” Clara blurted. She put a hand to her chest and looked at Joy, horrified. Joy had never said or done an unkind thing ever!

          Joy snorted, “You deserved it for walking me into that sign!”

          The girls stared at each other and then both broke out into hysterical laughter. They continued to the cafeteria, each one rubbing a part of their body that hurt while comparing notes. Even Joy started laughing about how absurd it was to walk face first into a random sign. She laughed about her cane missing the sign and Clara debating whether to tell her about it.

          And Clara? She ended up with a red mark across her chest for a day or so, but it was worth it. She did not speak up when she should have and then she laughed at her friend’s pain. It was not on purpose, of course, and Joy realized this. They really were just two normal girls who happened to be best friends.

 - Andrea Miller ( 02/16/2021 )

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